This
isn't something I have wanted to say, in case it is seen as just being a way of seeking attention, as some do do that on the site. Nor did I want to put this into the public arena, as it in regard to a personal hell.
I have had a number of people asking me to stay on this site. I
didn't want to tell all of you the real reason why I have to take leave of this site, as it is
quite personal.
I have suffered severe depression all my life and it is a terrible affliction for anyone to have, let alone having to deal with chronic pain too. It isn't easy dealing with this, I just make it
look easy. By that, I mean, most people wouldn't even know that I suffer such bad depression or that I have suffered such serious injuries.
Early this year, I had an abusive phone call from an IIS.er, who shall remain nameless, but isn't a regular, by the way, saying that I have no idea what I am talking about, which frankly outraged me, at the time.
That, coupled with other incidents, of a similar nature, one very recently, on the equipment thread, made me realise that I am doing myself no favours exposing myself to such ridicule, even if, through ignorance, it wasn't intended, which resulted in myself making an ignorant statement, out of frustration. I am a smart guy, certainly smart enough to know when enough is enough.
Although I have a thick skin and am not really bothered by such comments, I did come to the realisation that IIS has been having some negative affects on me.
I have survived severe depression purely by keeping all negative affects, where possible, out of my life. I have also noticed that I have taken a couple of swipes at others, which has made me realise the negative affects of being on any forum.
This is a fine community, with many fine people on it, for the most part, and I will miss it, however, I need to do what is
right for my own health.
Ice in Space used to give me many laughs, uproariously on occasions, but lately, it has gone downhill, as some people no longer take other people feelings into consideration. Sadly, I am not blameless in this regard either, but I have the capacity to admit when I am wrong, unlike some.
Thank you to all those that have shown encouragement and who have helped me along the way.
Finally, for those that suffer depression, don't think you are being tough by keeping it to yourself, seek help. I did a long time ago and had been given strategies to cope.
I will take this opportunity to wish you all a Merry Christmas.
This will be my final post. As some have expressed that they want to keep in contact, can through email
stardrifterwa@gmail.com
Cheers Peter
I could have got into an argument with them but what is the point - life is too short 
I'll keep checking in on IIS because most of the stuff is great and informative but I won't be posting much. It is a shame that people can't just be respectful of others opinions and be kind to each other.
