My deepest sympathies to you Scott & your family.
I pray that you have a safe journey to the USA & that you are able to share with your family, Ryan's achivements in his short time on this earth.
Don't think of him as gone, think of him as moved to a new address. And hang on to the knowledge that you'll be moving there with him one day (wherever that is).
My deepest sympathy Scott, he sounds like a great person.
Just recently I lost a cousin whom i remember mainly as a playmate as young boys. We used to see each other only when our fathers got the family units together which wasn't often as we were geographically seperated, and now with me living in oz and all of the family back in UK I havent seen him for four years at least. He had coped with manic depression since his late teens and four weeks ago jumped off a railway bridge to end it all. He was succesful... well after a few hours in hospital where, thankfully, my uncle and aunt were able to be with him when he passed.
Mental illness is a huge problem for the human race and is still not properly understood. Nevertheless, it sounds like you and your family were as much an inspiration to your brother as he was to you and he would have loved you for the support which is apparent just from reading your thread.
I'm glad you got to farewell your brother. It must feel good to know you were there ... and that you did what any good brother would be expected to do.
