Pog, everything comes to he who waits.....and visualises (in his mind) very, v e r y, V E R Y hard, the thing/s that you
really desire. Every night before you close your eyes and go to sleep, imagine an 8" dob sitting in your back yard by the fence. Visualise yourself stepping out of your back door and walking across the grass to use your beautiful new telescope.
Queensland University have developed a "scram jet", they launched it not long ago, and although it only had a 5 second flight, it flew. What I'm saying is space technology is happening fast, who knows where, how or who will be exploring space. Keep your dream alive Pog, don't write yourself off.
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good choice. There's loads of free stuff on the internet, loads of links on this website and loads of free advice, just keep reading. And don't forget, visualise hard what you want, it'll come.
Good luck.
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