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Originally Posted by RB
Alex, your posts have not gone anywhere.
You've edited them your self to read:
"???"
Not sure why you do this.
The mods have not edited any of your posts.
RB
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Hi Andrew
I hope your and yours are well and indeed that goes for all our wonderful moderators.
First let me appologise as I am now reasonably sure I got things wrong and you know me well enough to realise that if any occassion presents itself where I have made a mistake I want to analyse what has happened, admit my human fragility and appologise... further to rejoice because I find that even I can make a mistake and remind myself that I am indeed a mere falable human.
Yes I deleted and edited the above posts but I submit it was because I was suffering a delusion which I would like to explain.
But before I go on I say that I am very very sorry to perhaps have caused confusion and taken your time to post to address my behaviour.
Yesterday was a big day for me where I achieved some, to me remarkable things, and avoided death literally by a foot ....and me being me wrote about it in my usual brief manner submitting I thought a thread titled "A Big Day"
I must emphasis it was a most taxing day and make the excuse that the stress and fatigue cuased my terrible behaviour.
Last night I came to general chat and right away noticed there were no comments on my new thread titled "A Big Day" mainly because it was not there..now I would like to think because I was tired and had experience a close call with death and been off my prescribed morphine for two days that I reacted negatively thinking my thread had been removed with no explanation..I now realise I was experiencing somewhat a delusional approach to reality..
Anyways my delusion manifested in a childish reaction to delete and amend my posts as it just seemed like the correct thing to do..but you think crazy stuff when you are delusional and fortunately I had a good night's sleep and able to embrace reality today and hence I sincerely appologise Andrew and thank you for caring enough to make your post as really I was at a loss how to handle my mistake and your post gave me the opportunity to offer answers that you deserve. Thank you.
In any event the other realty that hit me was my thread was totally self indulgent something I have had great trouble eliminating in my life and before I got here just now had rationalized that given the nature of my thread a moderator had every right to bin it..and as I have pleaded I ask before you judge me harshly please understand I was tired so very tired and although I have been boasting that I am not suffering withdrawal from the morphine perhaps that could be taken in account in extending to me some mercy in judgement.
One last thing if you could confirm that you did not see my thread "A Big Day" so I can decide if I should retell the story...if I can rember that is ..after all it was yesterday which seem now so far away.
To sum up I am sorry and appologise..and confirm even if the thread appeared and was deleted that I have no problem as I like to think I bow to the judgement of the moderators always..they have a thankless job and I for one appreciate all they do for us.
Alex