Scott,
Don't get too worked up about your collimation, it gets better with practice and we all start somewhere.
If you have not been adjusting your primary then you have not really been collimating your scope.
Now let's start at the beginning.
If you installed your crayford focuser directly onto the tube and have not buckled the tube then it should be OK. The GS crayfords come with the curve for a 230mm tube so it should just bolt straight onto your tube and be aligned.
If collimation is broken down to its essentials then there are three steps:
- Centre secondary under the focuser so that it has an even "margin" around the secondary when looking directly at it through the focuser or, even better, through a sight tube like a Cheshire eyepiece. I find it a bit easier to do this by putting a bit of white paper opposite the focuser so you can really see it against the paper. The secondary should also be "round" indicating it is square to the focuser.
- Adjust tilt of secondary so the beam from the laser strikes the primary right in the middle of the centre spot. You may have to go back and forwards with these steps a few times to get it just right but it will improve with repetition. Once the secondary is round and the beam is striking the centre of the primary then....
- Adujst tilt of primary so that the beam of the laser is returned back into the laser so it is literally retracing its path showing the mirrors are in alignment.
Now there are better ways to collimate but that will get good views and you will get better at it over time, then it may be time for you to get into the other methods if you choose.
Keep looking up