Welcome aboard Tanya!
Plenty of useful threads to read on this site which will help you choose.
Also look in the "Projects & Articles" and "Equipment Reviews" over on the left for more guidance.
Yes, it would be good to see some telescopes and touch them before you buy. Getting to a club night, or into a retail shop would help. Then, be patient while you decide.
Most important is what you can see - so you want to best optics you can afford. Adding computerised control to the telescope package means that the optics are going to be cheaper to keep the price reasonable. But adding computerised control means you find things to look at much quicker. Decisions, decisions!
Cheers
Eric