Hey Alex, always remember to cut yourself some slack, you’re going through a few things all at once, and the psychological impact can not be underestimated.
Best of luck with the oncologist, I hope it’s progress. Don’t be reluctant to try another strategy, they usually have a few things up their sleeves these days.
I know this can be misinterpreted, as it is ultimately selfish, but you have such a positive impact on so many peoples lives…hang on in there, we’re all cheering for you
(fwiw, in my native English tongue we’d say “we’re all rooting for you!” but that means something totally different here
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