Ok, before I start my post, I'd like to outline the "framework" for which this post is intended (coming off the back of the thread on miscommunication
). This is certainly not a thread promoting or condoning violence in any way, having been the victim of it twice in the last 6 weeks I now feel the need to just share some of it to help me come to terms with what I've been through. Mods, should you feel that this is not the right place, I wholeheartedly respect any decision made to lock or delete the thread
Righto, disclaimer aside, here I go.....
Without going into too much detail, in the last 6 weeks I have been the victim of two occassions of violence from a wife who is suffering some (as yet undiagnosed) form of mental condition. We have two beautiful children together and now I am torn between two feelings:
1. I never thought I would feel anything stronger than the love I have for my kids, but now I do - the fear and uncertainty I know feel towards my wife and the fact that I simply cannot put up with anymore, and;
2. Whilst I am now certain that I can not continue in the relationship, if things are this unstable while I am there doing the best I can, how can I be sure that things will get any better if I leave? I may not love her the same way anymore but I cannot lose the care I have for her knowing what her condition is doing to her, but how much can one person take?
To finish, I'm not really asking for sympathy or anything similar, I just felt comfortable enough sharing this most hurtful thing I have ever been through with you all, I haven't met any of you (yet
) but I do feel comfortable in sharing it with like minded astro people.
Thank you very much,
Ben.
