Great post Kulth.. Astronomy can have that impact on people - it can be really enlightening.. it can also put things in perspective, when you realise how small and insignificant we are in the whole context of the universe..
and when you do more research about how our solar system (and earth) was formed, and about how life evolved on our earth, it really is quite a fluke that we are here today.
I'm sure there's a huge philosphical discussion that could go on for hours, that I don't want to get into right now
but I liked reading your post and I hope this site can inspire others into astronomy, because it's a great hobby - it can open your eyes up to a lot of great things.
Soldant - astronomy with binoculars is great! I started with binoculars as well, and it's amazing what you can see just with binoculars. I love nothing more than scanning the milky way with my 11x70's, seacrhing out globulars, star clusters and nebula.