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Mike with the greatest of respect and with sincere concern I know the condition.
We live fast difficult and complex lives.
I think of myself I have it laid back and cruisie but when I look at everything I do in a week or month I find the level of activity far past anything I could have managed as a young man... so what happens..we take more and more on... such that we dont notice the shear load of activity we engage on each day and we take for granted that we will stand up each day and continue with the many routines we have made standard in our day.
So it could be that.
Being a perfectionist could contribute.
Whats the point of doing something unless it is perfect we ask ourselves...and that is when we have to say ..you bet..this is supposed to be fun...
I think the lack of consistent weather contributes when I think about it.
You may know gravity preoccupies me and I gauge my happiness levels by my approach to that subject..if I find it boring and of no importance I know I am down...when I think it is important and can sit and think happily about matters relating to it ..I know it is a good day... unfortunately the good day is probably tilted to the dellussional side of reality but thats ok... taking astro photos is sortta dellussional in so far as Hubble can get them why do we need to...again the answert is fun...fun can be elusive..if yoou question too long you find it has left the room.
Also I have a condition where once I have done
something I look for a new chalenge and so astronomy (and gravity) holds less chalenge so it becomes a little different.
It may be the old...."whats the meaning of life thing also"
I feel exposure to astronomy and the statistics can leave one feeling less than important when ones smallness hits home...but the fact is we are each so important...not to the world but to ourselves... and one needs to take time to appreciate oneself... feel ones existence as it were..
I am sorry for a short unconsidered answer I will think about this today.
alex
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