Alex, i see that you are an emotional type of person, this is a good thing, it seperates the living from the mundane as i see it.
I see some threads in clear breach of the rules, yet as they are posted by certain people they stay without even a warning, it's the double standards of the forum moderation that has been the problem here for some time.
Your post was over the top in your presentation of your views, but that could have been explained and discussed in the thread as it went on, i just don't see it as the big deal it has been made out to be.
I wish you could see the support you have and dont be so hard on yourself.
As an example, i placed a thread in the for sale forum, and had it hijacked from another member quoteing to me the forum rules when in breach of them himself by psting in my thread.
There was no moderation and it was up to me to re-quote the forum rules to him regarding posting in peoples for sale threads.
And yet just the other day i saw in another for sale thread, a moderator post in the thread warning to stick by the rules and keep the thread on topic, as i say it's the double standards that make it unfair that posts are picked and choosed if deleted or not.
So i suppose that has just about convinced me.