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Thank you gentlemen...
I realise that looking back at myself starting this thread just how crushed I was...just when I thought I could handle everything and anything all the gear fails..like all the gear, the roof motor fails and two gennys fail, then that terrible pain near broke me...well it did break me I believe.
And like so many other times having this place and the support from all the wonderful people here really made it manageable...I don't feel lonely because of this place and the wonderful people.
Still I am going to continue laying around so as to help my back so I can get the radiation out of the way...
When one starts to think about the proposition that there are others who are worse off and you are serious about that exercise you realise how lucky we are..first to live in these times, in the best country it would seem in the world...and second the sheer magnitude of human suffering even now but all thru history..like Gehngis Khan murdered some 10 %
of the then world population and the additional suffering is just unimaginable...
Then think of the deaths and suffering due to war...it is very hard to get your head around ... and so my issues are zip really...although that pain made me a little less philosophical.
There are so many things we take for granted that really make our lives so much better than others from earlier times...just our smart phones..like on the way to my scan..where is the place.. hang on I will call up the map app...check the locality to see there is parking close by...and these new cars ..just watching the screen when parking was absolute fun...and of course the scan..how wonderful...they can see everything and in very high resolution...and while waiting entertain ones self with the phone in countless way..then a message to tell a loved one what's happening and when we will be back.
Most of all I am so lucky to have an Ex who is my best friend and without her support I really could not make it...she drives me, pushes the wheel chair picks up my meds if I can't...and best of all seems to understand I am a little different and respects me nevertheless...she is perfect.
I am indeed the luckiest man on the planet.
Alex
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