[astronobob (Bob)]

Hi Astro-liano's

Aspergers eh, who'd of thunk, maybe some ?

Well, I guess some of you who have known me over the yrs may have thought that I can be a bit weird, even difficult at times, and noticed I am not very sociable through-out the forum,,

Some have known me for near a couple of decades and I admit I can be, backward, a bit out-of-line, etc.
I do try and be polite, how-ever, I do lack in social skills, etc. That said, I never really ment to be this way, it is just I did not and still don't know how to respond as near as good as all of you do to one another.
I am sorry for any uncomfortablness I may have cause, directly or indirectly.

A lot of me does not bode well with all people, here or in general, tho I seldom if at all create enemies, but I feel I just dont get along as well as many others do, that is fine, but as I have just recently realised some of the traites of high end adult aspergers, which I have just recently been diagnosed with, it has opened my eyes to why I have found so many things in life quite difficult.

On top of that, I had a hard up-bringing of rejection, being punished for what I thought was right. honestly I was not a trouble maker, but I was difficult for my family to understand, unfortunately I was often called a lot of degrading names and so forth, , and I was eventually thrown out of home at age 14, but I was working part-time and started full-time, concreting to support myself.
On the note of 'family' I have found out recently that my dad has died 6 months ago, but I only found out 3 months ago from my daughter who stumbled accross one of her cousins 'on my family side' socail media account ! Pretty sad huh.
None of my two brothers or two sisters wanted to tell me, in fact have not had much contact with any of them for many decades, but I do know some of them have & know my Ph and my social media contact but ?


Aspergers was not a known condition back then, so I kind-of forgive them ? Recent studies are showing that more people around my age are being diagnosed with it. I and them have been managing life the best we can over the decades, but our condition becomes worse due to not being understood most if not all our lives, condition being recognised and/or treated.

I have been reading a lot about this condition, but it does not make it easier, it actually feels like I was made to be rejected,,, quite disturbing in reality and in my mind, because people with high-end aspergers, do not recognise social cues, do not recognise general emotions and dont flow well with in conversation & general chit-chat. . We often feel left out, and we see people engaging nicely with each other but we dont really 'get it' and feel we don't deserve to recieve the same !
Easy to say when one has an idea, but when one just does not recognise it, it is very frustrating..

Anyway, I could go on all day, but my bottom line is, that I do and have appreaciated those here who have accepted me and I apoliguise to those if I come accross as 'distant' it was never intensional - just don't know how to connect properly.

Thnx for being there IISpacer's

Bob