I hear ya!
Sold nearly all my gear, kept my LX90 for the occasional visual and the observatory.
Been more interested in riding my adventure bike and doing some camping than hiding out and being an astro nut.
Can still do 300 km and camp for the night and look up when it has been grey and cloudy all day than sitting at home praying for clear skies.
You'll get over it, there are better things to do and you wont ever forget how small we are, really.
