Thanks for the kind words and encouragement everybody, just what I needed.
It's been hard to change my mindset seeing I've enjoyed what I've been doing. I love to create stuff with my hands and some hard earned sweat but I feel a like I'm treading water. I can still go out and make something but do the wrong thing it's a world of pain.
But yeah there's some real food for thought in what you guys have wrote.
I think I really need to do some hard thinking and mull over your suggestions , suck it in and face my fears and future.
As for back exercises have you got some that are useful Zero? I've started stretches, Pilates and trying to eat healthier to slim my waistline so far. Didn't know how tight I had become until I started stretching. Watching these fitness pros there's a big difference! But I can see it is slowly starting to pay off.
How is it too that everyone got that I work in construction even though I had only mentioned that I was a labourer.
Certainly a few mentalist type sleuths in the house. Wow!