The only thing I can say that might be of comfort is that YOU WILL get better at it.
It's just one of those strange things in life where you get better at it the more you do it ...
I can't explain it. One day, the penny seems to just drop.
But you do have to do it, and do it, and then do it some more. And aim for only small improvements if you don't feel that you are making giant leaps forward
