Waiting For Inspiration

[leon]

Hi guys, well, I'm back so to speak, after a loss of a family member it is strange, one seems to lose the interest in ones hobby, and other general things that one dose.

Truly, I felt like giving it all away, Astronomy that is, I just wasn't interested in going out on all those clear nights, and I have to admit that it still is a bit hard.

However I feel that time will pass, and I might just get back into it. :shrug:

I even felt like selling the lot and doing something completely different.

So at this point in time, the Observatory, although ready, sits idle, waiting for that time of inspiration.

Just thought I would share that with you. :)

Leon :thumbsup:

[Omaroo]

I can relate Leon. My father died of cancer a few weeks ago, and I sat there for a few days staring at the ceiling after the funeral.

I thought about slowing my astronomical pursuits down, and realised that the event, while the saddest thing for myself and family, should not affect my whole life if I could avoid it. Time heals, and I take solace in that.

I'm chilling for a while, and although the tragedy does weigh me down, I know that I'm in this game for a reason - I love it. It keeps me sane.

I'm sorry about your loss Leon - I hope that it doesn't consume you.

[Hagar]

I can also understand your feelings Leon, I think most of us have at one stage or another sunk into a low in our lives and wondered if what we do is what we really want to do and even had a bit of a hyatis from our interests or hobbies only to rebound a bit down the track and wonder why we thought that way in the first place.
Give it time, smell the roses and then return with a vengence.
Keep at it mate.

[Robh]

Leon,
My sincere condolences.
I lost my wife to cancer a few years ago. For a year afterwards, I just mechanically went to work and tried to keep myself busy. Then, my brother re-introduced me to old interest of mine from year's gone by ... Astronomy. I met new people but I also found a place I could reflect about my life- out under the stars. Somehow, looking out to the Universe at large, I felt we were all a part of something bigger and I found a little bit of peace with myself.
In times like these, you need to talk things out but you also need time to reflect and find peace with yourself. Don't give it up!
All the best, Rob.

[AstralTraveller]

I can only agree with Chris and Doug. Your in this for a reason and in time you will enjoy it again. Remember, those who loved you would want you to be happy.

[jjjnettie]

We're thinking of you Leon. Everyday.

[astroron]

I am thinking of you Leon and hope you will find the strength and will to go on.

[Jen]

Awwwww Leon (jen runs up and gives Leon a big hug):sadeyes:
Why dont you try and get some pics of the Rosette Nebula or something like that and dedicate it to your mother inlaw that should get you back in the swing of things. I hope you heal over time.
Welcome back to IIS thats a start right :thumbsup:

[Baddad]

Hey Leon,:)
People say, "Time heals all."

That may be true. Eventually you cope better and the unfortunate memory becomes just that. A kind of scar. We go back to living our lives and accept the past. Life goes on.

Its good for you Leon that you have made a start to heal. That is the hardest part. Now you can progress.

In June last year my 18 month old Grand Daughter drowned. I was a mess for a while. I recovered. So Leon it does happen, you will feel better, it just takes time.

Cheers Marty

I ask members not to respond about my Grand Daughter. The memory depresses me.

[Robert9]

Hi Leon,
A period of mourning is normal. We all go / have gone through it. Slowly the realisation that life goes on comes to us. So cheer up. The happy days will return as will happy memories.
Robert

[avandonk]

Leon I lost my father over ten years ago and he is still sorely missed. How I coped was by thinking of what my father would say if he saw me losing interest in things. Now when I have any minor success I automatically think that Dad would have liked to have seen that. Put yourself in your lost loved one's position. I am sure they would not want you to put a hold on life just because they are not around anymore to add joy to your life.

Regards Bert

[bloodhound31]

Leon,

I lost my father in '94 to cancer, my best mate last year to stroke, and (I can't believe I'm saying this) my wife's cat last year when I backed over it.

Each time my heart was ripped out, (yes, the cat too).

I wont presume to know how you are feeling, because it is different for everyone.

I can say this though and I hope it helps.

Each time I lose someone I am reminded that life can end at ANY moment. As I am reminded of my own mortality and the concept that my time on this planet measured against eternity later, is a single overnight hotel-stay in one's entire life, I remember to live it! If astronomy is my thing, then I do it. I never know when I won't be able to anymore.

Don't wait for inspiration mate, go out and grab it by the throat and kick it up the backside! You are alive and magnificent. Take heart mate.

Baz.

[dugnsuz]

Keep your pecker up Leon.
I can only echo the eloquent, sympathetic/empathetic posts above and hope you may take some heart from them and fire the enthusiasm up once more.
All the best
Doug

[mozzie]

hi leon dont give in mate life will slowly get back on track you have your family there how irionic im writing this thread and my dear old mum had past 13 years ago today leon you will always have the memories
mozzie

[leon]

You Guys are unbleivable, and are always ready to assist, I thank you sincerly for your kind and wise comments.

I know what you are saying is true, and believe in what you are saying.

Thank you again, to a community of good friends,

Leon

[multiweb]

"Life is to short to look through bad glass" . You said it all. Go out there back on the horse and enjoy your tak :)

[leon]

Marc, that rings true, I didn't think of that little snippet I put in my signiture.

Thanks mate. ;)

Leon :thumbsup:

[avandonk]

Leon I am looking forward to my daughter having her child, my first grandchild. The mere existance of life does imply ultimate death. Without sadness we would not have happyness. Life is a journey to be enjoyed. Not simply a final destination from a starting point.

Bert

[xelasnave]

Hi Leon..the key is to do stuff.
When I have a loss it makes me realise how insignificant we are and how little we do has any value...and so one can say what is the point?...well most times there is no point buit that does not mean you should stop doing stuff.
I have taken up martial arts (crazy at 62 but I dont plan cage fighting it is simply something to keep real fit) and sword fighting...I mean there is no call for it but it is a doing thing ... nothing is of importance other than the doing.

So you just gotta force yourself into activity...I went down over the last year..heaps of problems with crazy ladies but by getting too involved I ceased activity to wallow in my misery...well activity is the key... over all of them.
AND invented a better life than the one before..my Dr Who new personallity time ...I have a new me to use.

alex
alex

[PeterM]

Hi Leon,
So many good people here, people you "know" but don't see, you are one of them, hang in here!

Lost my dad 24 years ago to cancer. At 57 seemed "old' back then but now that I am 51 it seems way too young.

Every now and then reading, hearing, seeing something, remind me of good times - it was my dad who let me stay up and watch The Sky at Night when I was 8 and way past bedtime - I have no doubt this started me on my astronomical pursuits. The now funny (not at the time) when he booted my Fender Stratocaster (in case) across the room because I was, well you know. He bought me my first Tasco 66mm scope (yes, I have forgiven him, it was actually a good scope).

I pretty much went through what you are now - I did give Astro away for a short while. My Dad was my inspiration for any successes I have had and the many friendships I have found in this hobby. I often raise a glass of port to him under the dark skies at Leyburn.
I will have one (maybe 2 or 3 even) for you tonight, looks like it will be clear, roof opens up after 14 nights closed - you should join me, how about 8pm?
PeterM.

[leon]

Thank You all for your support, and as Peter just mentioned, although I have not laid eyes on most of you I still consider you all good mates, ladies included. ;)

Leon :thumbsup:

[Jen]

:clap::clap::clap::clap:
high five Leon :thumbsup:
:D