Send your positive energy to Alex, he is struggling

[glend]

It maybe presumptuous of me to post this, but Alex is having a very hard time following the completion of his radiation therapy. He indicated to me this evening that he will not be thinking about astronomy in the near term, nor engaging with IIS, but hopefully he will read this thread and gain some strength from the wishes and support flowing from our community. Please use this thread to support Alex in a time of great need.
Thank you.

[JA]

Hi Alex,

Sending you every good wish for your treatment and health. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

Best
JA

[Crater101]

Alex, sending you all the best young man! We've all taken some hits, but for you to keep going the way you have, you've shown you got the inner strength you need. Hang in there, we're all behind you!

[AstroViking]

Hey Alex,

All the best to you. We need you here to keep us young whipper-snappers in line, and to show us what can be done (and how to do it!)

Cheers,
V

[Marko of Oz]

:cheers:

[leon]

Alex, dear friend, you are a tough fella, and seem to move forward at all times, mate you are my best friend and I wish you well in your time of need.:):)
Hang in there buddy.:thumbsup:

Leon:thumbsup:

[croweater]

Best wishes Alex. A lot of people do care mate.
Cheers, Richard.

[GTB_an_Owl]

keep up the good fight Alex, and follow the rules to recovery

geoff

[Dave882]

All the best mate hang in there- we look forward to seeing you back around IIS soon

[wavelandscott]

Sending positive thoughts and admiration from far away…

[alpal]

Poor Alex,
I hope he pulls through OK.


Allan

[strongmanmike]

Alex, some positive energy, passed on from my mate, Cath Ode

:thumbsup:

[alan meehan]

Hey, Alex, all the best have a fast recovery. We all need your wisdom.

[Kuz]

Alex , you have been an inspiration to many here on IIS including myself. I always enjoy reading yours posts and positive encouragement to all.

Take care mate . Looking forward to your next post :thumbsup:

[The_bluester]

Hang in there Alex, lots of us thinking of you.

[PhilTas]

Hey Alex,

Don't you go anywhere, we all very much enjoy your posts on here!!!

Your inputs always positive, at times humorous, and you are always ready to share your experiences of life.

Hang in there, get better, and all the best.

Cheers Phil

[Shano592]

Hoping your downward turn bottoms out especially early. May the uptick be prolonged and importantly, very soon.


I hope you're feeling better very soon, Alex.

[Startrek]

Hi Alex,
Your courage and strength has always been a source of inspiration to others
Hope to see you on IIS sooner than later
Take care my friend
The night sky will always wait for you , when your good and ready

Best always
Martin

[astroron]

Hi Alex Mate, thinking of you .
Keep on keeping on.
Cheers:thumbsup::thumbsup: :thumbsup:
Ron

[Camelopardalis]

Get well soon Alex, the RASA isn’t going to image all by itself :thumbsup:

[Nikolas]

All the best Alex, Radiation therapy can be very tiring but when the side effects wear off you should feel a lot better

[xelasnave]

Greetings all...just on my way back from the grave and it's getting a longer climb out each time so I really appreciate all you very kind people throwing me a rope.

I would like to particularly like to thank Glen and as we are good friends was privey to what I was going thru and between him and John ( Ossca) I was able to manage some extremely difficult days ..indeed hours.

Glen realised that for whatever reason I could not face the world, I could not even visit here which probably indicates just how difficult things had become for me..I somehow feel a duty to keep my friends informed as to what's going on and also try to demonstrate a positive attitude that others who are doing it tuff and tuffer than me who may be able to draw upon to ease their suffering...I am as honest as I can be and really am happy with my statement that I am the luckiest man on the planet...it may be a lie to the world but it is not a lie to me and in this area I am most happy to fool myself...but I am really as I just have this attitude that hardley ever leaves me..even with everything of late it is still there..but having you guys to help keep it working really helps.

The radiation had run two weeks and I was back in the van last Saturday and was stewing because when I looked at my schedule there was nothing about the coming Monday and Tuesday and when I saw the doctor before comeing home for the weekend he said " well that was your last treatment..I said No I have two more and he looked at me blankley and said nothing...on looking at my schedule on the Saturday I thought how I seem to have an intimidating style that has people rarely contradicting me and the schedule in my hand in black and white seemed to confirm that no treatment Monday orTuesday ..they told me last week such that I extended my time in the flat...well things mentally were all over the place now as he had told me that future radiation was out of the question and this lump is growing while I am trying to rationalise the situation ...in fact hours latter I could not talk so good and I could tell my windpipe was contracting...I really thought the end was near for the very first time..and I just felt bad confused and scared...So I went back in to my little flat near the radiation department Sunday morning so as to at least get close to emergency but planning to turn up at radiation Monday morning and ask why am I not having the extra two days days treatment.

I made it thru the night obviously and presented at the front counter who could not help me and sent me straight into radiology...but I had the feeling she did want to be the one to tell me..I get that sometimes..usually they greet you immediately but I sat for 15 minutes seemingly being ignored..I felt something was up..who is going to deal with me was no doubt being discussed in the corner room...I was getting pretty low by then but my favorite nurse came around the corner and said " You are early" and my spirits jumped up a couple of levels.."so you are expecting me?" I ventured.."yes but not until 4 pm"....instant joy....so I went thru my issues and she called the doctor and said we can do the radiation soon so just hang around..then my favorite doctor came to see me..she is the most wonderful person I have ever had the pleasure to be near...like she is a busy doctor but she has stopped to chat with me when just passing me in the waiting area 10 minutes even...so she makes me feel that she cares about me as person as well as a patient...she said I should take some steriods and the swelling will go down and really put me at ease...so I had my radiation went to the chemist filled my scripts and went from laying flat in the grave to peeking over the edge trying to get out...but I was damaged and I could tell...

I could not go thru making a report here and I think by then Glen had started this thread but I could not look for whatever reason....

So the idea was rest and not think and get it together.

I could not come here until I could be honest...I was somewhat crushed and barely managing and when I look at my neck it is easy to despair...I don't want to make folk feel sad so I could not come here.

Anyways that is all behind me as happily I awoke early and felt happier and able to face the world.

Seeing this thread did it..it really did and I can not thank you all enough..

.so the plan today is work my way back..nothing over the top.. so I started just by clearing the sink and a small tidy just there..got out in the dark filled the genny and started things running...made a real cup of tea rather than just using coke to keep the fluids going..small steps that covered a great distance...

And now step two explain what happened etc.

I am still going to rest as I think the radiation may be having effects that I can't clearly identify...I had some pain killers left over from the back situation which is now just a bad memory thank goodness..the scan shows nothing so I will go with that..who wouldnt...but the damage done by "who ever venture an unsupported opinion with out evidence guy " who irresponsibly told me it was probably cancer in my spine really took a lot out of me and for no reason..but fortunately I have a brain and even then I thought this guy does not have a clue..who gives an opinion like that without even a scan..but once planted that seed did not die quickly.

But days ago last week I couldn't sleep the neck was sore, my back was sore and my legs but all "normal" stuff that I just accept or ignore whichever comes first ..so I thought have a pain killer that will get you you sleep..it is an opiate so drowsy is part of its deal..it worked and did wonders..so I am takeing two a day and getting wonderful sleep...and actually walking much better ..it is really noticable...I told the doctor and he approves and wrote another script...

So all good.

Thanks everyone and sorry that I could not deal with this and report in but it was just beyond me ...and probably I will be quite for a while yet as the doctor said the radiation effects get worse before they get better...

I hope for those who are doing it tuff that things get better for you also..

Alex

[bojan]

Alex, I am happy to see you back here, really I am..
All the best and take care !

[AstroViking]

Alex, you have to be the most resilient person I have ever seen. You've got a PhD from the "School of Hard Knocks" and you just keep on going with an amazing positive attitude.

I hope I speak for everyone here when I say that you are truly an inspiration to us all.

Keep going, and I wish you a speedy recovery.

[EpickCrom]

Hi Alex, wishing you a speedy recovery! Your strength is an inspiration to us all here on ISS:thumbsup:

[xelasnave]

One picture is worth a 1000 words so I will be brief.

I took this photo just before my first steriods tablet so I could objectively monitor the situation...you will notice a line starting near my right ear and dropping as it travells to the left..that line is actually the scar left after the thiroid operation.. I would have like to see when that was opened as that was a decent cut...but you can see the distortion using that scar as it should appear the same on each side...

[xelasnave]

It has occurred to me that given the doctor said about the steroids.. take one in the morning but not at night...mmm it may have a stimulative effect... maybe that is why I have had such a huge up swing...like first tablet 12 noon yesterday and back on deck as it were at 4 am today...

Has anyone experience with steroids?

And the scrip says one a day for five days then half each day I think for another five days...but I am sure the script has five repeats...and there are still heaps on the current bottle...

No pain and happy was a clown I guess.

Alex

[Camelopardalis]

Alex, glad to hear your spirit is fighting back :thumbsup:

I’ve had steroids after surgery before and yeah I was wide awake in the dead of night!

Be careful with them and consult your doctor, as the stimulation is pretty much the best of the side effects. Typically they’re not taken for more than 2 weeks because they can behave as a immune suppressant. So defo check with your doc to be safe.

[xelasnave]

Thanks ...much appreciated...

Alex

[xelasnave]

Update ..I dont know if the treatment has worked but I feel good enough to get 25 hours out of today ...it is wonderful to have one more day of this most wonderful life.
Alex

[Startrek]

Fantastic news Alex
You are the master of positivity
Enjoy the day !!

Martin

PS: After weeks of cloudy weather I was out last night imaging NGC 5139 and M83 in Sydney, perfect night , I could even see lots of stars ( usually only a few under our heavy LP ) Finished up 3am , out again tonight and maybe tomorrow night . It really gives you a boost being out under a beautiful clear night !!!

[Anth10]

Alex,
POWER to you o’bearded one….
One positive is that you may consider your new look without the beard? Hehehe
One thing however is that you will always have your wisdom.
Hang in there toward a full recovery.
We’re all batting for you.


Cheers
Anthony.

[xelasnave]

Thank you gentlemen...but I went out and mowed some grass which I usually do not have to do as I ride the mower to the observatory with the blades down and you would be surprised how I never have to do the half a day thing...

However I came back in and looked at my neck and man it really looks bad and it was just so easy to give up and literally cry...I could have..I nearly did...but I thought..now you just mowed the grass..no pain and you were happy as anyone could be so are you now going to be a sook and let that lump ruin your day...well no I am not...and that makes all the difference and if it gets real bad I get to go into hospital get my meals in bed and chat with nurses all day...its win win win if you look st it the right way....

And I feel a bit lost as last weekend I really did not think there would be this weekend coming up...still I will manage.

Funny with the beard..I really liked it...but it is gone..so are all the wives and I have no plans to replace any of those things.

Heck it is a nice day...I will go into the observatory later..just trying to build some fortitude to manage possible rain damage, rats, whatever and start tidying up and pulling it all together somehow.

But writing here really helps and I know it is terrible to show others how lucky I am and having people wish they had their very own lump good drugs and pretty nurses to visit in town etc but I just can't help boasting about my good fortune I guess.

Thanks everyone I can not express my thanks enough..such a superlative just does not exist

Alex

[Camelopardalis]

It’s the ‘roids, Alex :cool:

[xelasnave]

It could be ..last full one this morning then half for five days...then mmmm..

Really funny this week...last week I thought I was finished..I even said my goodbyes before I went back to town...but this week ( Glen could tell) not expecting to be here the old brain signed off..no plans and man for me that is just so odd... Drugs maybe bht very odd feeling like I have never had.

And I can't thank myself enough for getting mailwithtail over to in his usual fashion get the show on the road again...with out that help things just would not be the same cause I just can't do the simples of jobs....no wonder I am starting to worry for when I get old...

Thanks to MWT and everyone...

Alex